Emma mentioned a while back that the end of this school year feels like the last scene from "Mean Girls". And It does. Everything does. All of my little spats, and little things I didnt like about people feel so childish and useless. Im going off to a new scary place next year and will most likely loose contact with all of my Kalles friend's, except for a few. Why not see the best in people for one more month? And I think everyone else has this mind set. I think thats why people who dont want to go to the dance and go end up loving it - because Everyone loves everyone. and everyone loves everyone because the very reason that used to make me hate my 9th grade class. Everyone knows everyone. Its just one day away from nothing being the same.
I want to explain how Im feeling by first telling a little story. There was once a little cat. This cat is a beautiful and smart cat. However last year mr. sexually confused ditto saw her as a ugly lion. The cat called Mr.S(thats what we will call the boy) a mean name. Mr. S assumed the Cat was a certain type of person. And she wasnt. The next year Mr. S started talking to the Cat and realized how awesome she was. This Cat is the coolest, most down to earth, real, inspiring, friendly, humorous, and intelligent girl at Kalles. Mr. S saw the Cat as no longer a lion, but a cute kitty. Mr. S is me, and the Cat is Kinsey...
I used to think why I hated this year was because I didnt get to meet any new kids. I knew my entire small ninth grade class. And knew everything there was to know about them. Except each person. But after watching Mean girls I realized it was because I was sick of us not getting along and not seeing the best in each other. We need to support each other as a class for even ourselves to be successful. We need not to condemn someone to a stereotype. And that is why I wasnt a fan of this school year. Until now. When suddenly everyone just loves everyone. And Its for the very reason I hated: Because Everyone knows everyone. I know their strengths and I have finally realized the best of people. And enjoy everyone's company. I have found that the more I get to know people, like kinsey, i start to realize I wish I had been friends with them since 7th grade. A stupid spat shouldn't ruin something that could make your 3 year experience a little better. Even If someone hates me I will love them, because I will look more fondly on these 3 years at Kalles.
So I feel rather foolish. Why didnt we all just not care? Why weren't we kind. Why didnt we support each other? 3 years would have been way better. Im never going to see most of these kids again, so why didnt I make the best time with them for 3 years? Why hate anyone?
Kalles has brought me so many great opportunities. It brought me SoTA. and Best friends. And Theater. Sports. Relationships. Support. Loss. Education. Life lessons. Life Issues. Its part of who I am. I get school pride now. The concept. Suddenly, Im not too excited for Kalles to end. Im not excited for everyone to go on to high school. Nothing will be the same. Im not saying its a bad thing, I just want the last month of Kalles to kick ass.
And It truly will.
I didnt proof read this, I dont have time. I will later.
